You. Are. His. Pearl.

So you wake up, get out of bed, look in the mirror, and your disgusted! Disgusted with the body your in, disgusted with how life has turned out with you thus far! Yup, this was me back in 2011and years before then. I'll be real transparent in this blog....I HATED MYSELF! I woke up EVERYDAY looking in the mirror disgusted with the body I was "trapped" in because I didn't feel I was beautiful, but most of all because I was TALL! I was this 6'0 teen who seemed to always sky over everyone. I always felt like I was the person to stare at because I was so tall. So you want to know what I did? I used to create a place to escape in my mind! Sounds crazy right?!  EVERY NIGHT if I didn't go to bed crying, I created a safe haven in my mind, creating a false image of who I wanted to be and who I thought I needed to be in order to be "beautiful". In this "world", I was about 5'5, "perfect" weight, and I had the most beautiful clothes.  I imagined myself being loved by everyone and being so popular. I would fall asleep as this would bring me comfort...until I woke up realizing that "world" was not a reality!!! I struggled with this for years as well as comparing my physical appearance with others.  I would always think thoughts of wishing to look like someone else or just wishing to be them period. 

But here's the good news! I can honestly say that I do not struggle with this ANYMORE! As I re-dedicated my life back to Christ in 2011, I started to discover who I was and that's when I started to love myself. It was a process and I'm still on that journey to being completely healed from low self-esteem, but I have come a LONG WAY! I never want to change who I am or compare myself with anyone else because I now understand what Psalms 139:14 means. It's says: I will praise You, for I am fearfully  and  wonderfully made; Marvelous are Your works, And  that  my soul knows very well. Isn't it beautiful to know that God has made us Wonderfully  and Marvelously?! We are his beautiful creation no matter what your race, size, or height may be!  As you spend more time with Christ, you begin to receive clarity of who you are! That's what happened to me! I started to understand that Christ lives within me, so that right there told me that I was beautiful and that I should love me for me because Christ does! 

I was praying for my best friend over the summer and the Lord told me to tell her that she's a pearl in His eyes. Now at first I was a bit confused! I'm so used to hearing the beauty in diamonds that I was shocked that The Lord specifically told me to tell her that she was a pearl. So I googled the word pearl and found a quote that explained exactly why God told me to tell her this.  It says:

 

"The pearl owes nothing to man. It is absolutely a gift of nature on which man cannot improve." 

-quoted from the great gemologist of the late 19th century, George Fredrick Kunz.

So listen! You, a pearl, owe NOTHING TO ANYONE! You do not have to change who you are to fit in or to be a part of what you think will make you feel complete! You are a gift that absolutely NO ONE can improve! Love yourself, embrace your uniqueness! It's what makes you YOU! In Mark 7:6, Jesus tells us not to cast our pearls before swine, lest they trample them under their feet.  Do not just give your beauty away to those who won't appreciate it! It's too precious and YOUR too precious!

It's a long journey. Trust me I know, I'm still on it; but begin to understand how your viewed in God's eyes, not the world's. I may not see you face to face but I do know that YOU, the person reading this blog, are beautiful. You my dear, are fearfully and wonderfully made! You are a Marvelous work!

You. Are. His. Pearl.

Yes! These pearls all look different, but they are still pearls!  Same goes for us! We may not look like the person standing right next to us, but we ALL are still pearls in the eyes of our Father!